I slept until noon today. I didn’t get that refreshing rest that I needed. No, I slept on the couch for most of the night waking up every few hours wanting to go to bed, but feeling too lazy and lifeless to do any such thing. Image found here I finally made my way to traditional bed at 5:30 … Continue reading »
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Trust
On New Years Eve, I attended a burning bowl ceremony. The intention behind this event was to release the past by way of writing down events in 2011 that maybe we aren’t so proud of or happy with and burn the energy of the “unpleasantness” in a big bowl. After doing that, we were led … Continue reading »
Let me introduce myself.
Recently, it dawned on me that I don’t know my mother… and probably haven’t known her at all since I was about 10 or 11 years old (possibly before that, even). You see, it was around that time that my already terribly dysfunctional family exploded and I chose to disappear into the background in order to protect my … Continue reading »
Forgiveness
I’ve been thinking a lot about forgiveness lately. As you may or may not know, I’ve been looking for ways to heal past memories and ultimately forgive my mother. However the process is made more difficult because she has refused over and over again throughout the years to admit that there was anything unhealthy about … Continue reading »
Healing on the Hands of Time
Very recently, I set an intention to stick to a few healing activities for one month. I have created a calendar with the same events written on each day. ’AM Meditation, Judge my neighbor worksheet, Free form writing and PM Meditation.’ Setting an intention like this and sticking to it is sort of a big deal … Continue reading »
Sometimes the end really is just the beginning.
If you’ve kept up with my blog, you would know that my last few weeks in Minnesota were some pretty frustrating times which lead to my last few days in Minnesota that turned into a grand finale to not only a very warped experience- but also to a drama that has been keeping a stranglehold on … Continue reading »
Happy to be home.
It’s nice being home. So far, I’ve enjoyed LOTS of sleep. This morning, my temporary room mate said, “I am completely impressed by your ability to sleep.”…. Yeah, I sleep a lot. I suppose after the two year ride of “intense and accelerated character building,” followed by the recent grand finale of my learning and growing extravaganza, … Continue reading »
Everything is going to be okay.
The second half of my Minnesota adventure has turned into one of the most warped experiences of my life. The day before I left the first home I stayed at in MN, I said to my host, “I have a really bad feeling about this… I don’t think I am making a good choice by … Continue reading »
The “L” Word.
A few months ago when I was going through a particularly uncomfortable growth spurt, a friend reached out to me in an attempt to help. I wasn’t expecting the genuine assistance and it took me by painful surprise. You see, he left a long message on my phone saying something along the lines of, “You … Continue reading »
The person I used to know as me.
I bought my plane ticket to Minnesota this morning. Wow. I’m really doing this. I’m so excited…but filled with nostalgia and a deep sense of gratitude for every person and situation which has colored my world for the last several years. If someone told the person I used to know as me that I would … Continue reading »
