Here is the best label I can find for the job I want when I grow up: Professional Catalyst.
The description is as follows: To do philanthropic work by way of traveling extensively, spreading sunshine, building global community, catalyzing awakening and inspiring connection.
I consider my specialties/strengths to be these: Inspiring people, writing, smiling, scattering happiness, thinking outside the box and making waves.
I’ve tried over and over to fit myself into labels for my ideal position which fit the “rules” of society.
Some of the labels have been:
Professional Writer: I LOVE MY BLOG. I find it to be inspiring, outside the box and real. It provides a wonderful forum for me to show you all how my brain works and illustrate as best I can the beauty I see in the world and of course to show the actions I take in creating the vision which lives so clearly in my head. I LOVE sharing the good times and the bad either through very personal and emotional stories or through simply being the change I wish to see in the world. I think it’s cool that at the end of my posts it shows related stories which the reader might be interested in that are similar to what I wrote and the ONLY thing that comes up are stories from my blog. I think it’s awesome that I’m different and the only one like me. However, I am the only one like me (in the blogging world)…. so maybe the public isn’t ready for me yet since others aren’t reporting similar things. I don’t have a huge following (though I love the feedback I do get). I talk to real professional writers who get paid and after reading my stuff they say with smiles, “Wow… it’s really inspiring and endearing… and you are so sweet…. but….” Let’s face it, I write from my heart… but as a professional writer I am lacking some serious skills which are required to make it. I’m not going to give up as I know I have something to share with the world that is of real value, but it’s going to take time. So, I started brainstorming on other ways to make some cash doing what I love.
Acting: I thought this might be a good avenue to pursue since it has great potential for the power I need in order to create a platform for what I actually want to do. And anyway, people constantly tell me that I have a great/unique look, a fantastic energy and a very unique voice…. and all of those qualities are a great start. I attended a few acting classes and though it was fun, I didn’t actually like the acting part. I thought, “But I LOVE Being ME” and my favorite part about class was socializing, making others laugh and applauding the effort and accomplishments of other students. Being the cheerleader was way more fulfilling than actually acting.
Volunteering: LOVE LOVE LOVE IT! I get to interact how I choose and I know for a fact each time I’ve done it, I’ve inspired others and left a very positive mark where I provided my services.
Volunteering doesn’t pay.
Again, I want to create a Global Family. Or as one friend calls it, “A love movement.”
Innyhoo- I’d like to celebrate today because I got what I consider a first payment for doing what I love… and that is an accomplishment!
A friend sent some money and a lovely letter which read:
I know this isn’t a lot but I hope it helps you on your way. It’s a thank you for the inspiration I received from your blogs about the laundromat and the giving so much. May you continue to find a plethora of friends, joy and prosperity.
It made my day. I am truly happy to be acknowledged for the work I do everyday and plan on continuing and growing for the rest of my career…. (It is my greatest hope that someone who shares my vision and can help me live it will catch on and help me make it a career.)
I moved to LA for no other reason than to help a non profit start up… I sold all my stuff to move down here because it just felt right. It’s been a roller coaster in which I’ve temporarily misplaced my favorite parts of me… but more thoroughly uncovered my true self… my real aspirations. You might say that life has put me through the wringer since arriving, but I think the universe has a funny way of waking us up and helping us remember what is buried deep within our souls DNA. To me, it is no surprise that I have chosen to walk this path… It’s been with me the whole time.
Now, how do I make it a fluid reality?