As I went into Santa Monica to sleep in my car for the first time, I found myself feeling quite scared. Even though I knew in my heart that I would be okay and that a solution would materialize, I couldn’t help but look around the area noticing how the blanket of quickly falling darkness changed the landscape dramatically. Normally, I like the night hours… but now that I would be sleeping in my car I found the night to be terribly frightening. I wished sleep wasn’t necessary. Fear was over-ruling my ability to believe in myself or any miracles.
Luckily, I got a text message from a person named ‘Adam’ who I had never even met before. (Well, I met him once for a few seconds in a doorway when I was going out and he was going in). All I knew about him was that he was very friendly and we had several friends in common. Adam had taken an “interest” (for lack of a better word) in my current life and surprisingly enough one night just before I was due to become an official Rolling Stone accepting the consequences of my choices, I received an e mail from him at 3:31 am- just one minute after my eyes popped open in a fit of heart pounding anxiety over what could be to come. I loved the calming peace which that synchronous event had provided to me… it proved that just when I think I am alone, I always get proof that I am being watched over and guided…. even if nothing manifests, i know that God/Source/Spirit is there listening and comforting and of course working on my behalf.
Anyway, I got a text from Adam that dark night, again when I was in a fit of, “Really?!?! This is what my heart says… I MUST be on crazy pills… my vitamins must be laced with craziness.” I participated in a downward spiral lead by my ego, which landed me in doubting my choice and had me thinking of worst case scenarios such as going to a homeless shelter or something even worse. What on earth had I gotten myself into? Again, just when I needed a presence most, Adam appeared. After a series of texts, he invited me to sleep over on his couch. I believe he was feeling out the situation some and also me in general… just as I didn’t know him, he didn’t know me.
I agreed and went to his house immediately where I was greeted with a hug, I got a warm shower and an incredibly comfortable couch. Seriously, I have no idea where this couch came from, but it was so AMAZING.
That night, I slept better than I ever had in my whole entire life. I think it was a small part exhaustion, with most of the other part being the pure love that practically overflowed from the energetic magic of that place and then there was the amazing painting with a poem about the power of love directly above where I slept. I think part of why that apartment felt the way it did was because there are regularly heart/soul-centered spirits who sleep in the exact place that I slept, each having left a small deposit of energetic love…. and of course, Adam himself is pretty loved filled and generous.
The next morning, I was filled with hope and a renewed optimism for my choices and for my next adventures. I love that Adam and I crossed paths the way we did as his kindness is exactly what I am talking about when I discuss a global family: There is always an option, we are always supported… and sometimes all it takes is opening up to love which is ever-flowing all around us each and every waking second of our human existence.
You know, that night I was tempted to decline his assistance as I felt unworthy of his support. I almost declined because I had thought patterns that pointed me in the direction of: we don’t live in a friendly place, I am a horrible person and my goals are absolutely ridiculous and of course, life isn’t fair… (*deflect all off those thoughts*).
Throughout this journey, I continue to learn over and over again that I must trust things that I don’t know, I must get out of my comfort zone and even though doing that sometimes triggers discomfort, the result time and time again has proven that the universe will provide us whatever we need/authentically long for and all we have to do is be open to receiving and we NEVER have to buy into or take on a life which does not serve our highest purpose- there are always options which support our highest longings as well as our present moment needs…. we just have to be aware for when divine assistance arrives and then be prepared to act in our own best interest… I know this sounds a little Disney, but I also find it is so important to merely believe in miracles, both big and small.. because really if we don’t believe, how can we be open enough to receive?
Thank you Adam. You renewed my faith in my journey and you opened my eyes and heart to the vast potential of my manifesting powers as well as the love that is everywhere-always.
The next day, I woke and was sent on my way in an exuberant kind of mood which attracted the most generous African boy who provided the friendship and support which served my needs for day two as a Rolling Stone.
Up next: Beautiful encounters with strangers and a week with a father figure that I never knew I needed.
